because of you

well i'm having a bad day, i talk to people even stranger, so i think a cheesy post here won't matter.

i've been talking about leaving you lately, but in the end i'll keep coming back for you, i can't stand to see you cry, people said when you in love, their sorrow being yours too, so here i am, my heart broken into pieces because i know bad thing just happen to you. 

i know you're having a hard time lately, and life being so asshole to you and sorry for being an asshole too, you know i didn't mean to, it's just i'm miserable without you. i don't care what people might say about us, but the only thing that i know is you're the one who matter the most for me

dan semaleman ini aku berusaha mengingat kenapa aku waktu itu memilih kamu........i used to be a selfish one, ketika berada di suatu relationship yang ku tau hanya aku harus bahagia, aku bahkan tidak mau mendengar masalah pasanganku, buatku masalah dia ya bukan masalahku. but you came, and everything change, 

you are that one person that made me do things i never did and i'm totally okay with that. orang pertama yang berhasil membuat kata 'tidak' menjadi tetap menyenangkan,  i'm totally in love with you no matter who you are......... and thank you for changing my life,
 terimakasih sudah jadi sahabat, kakak, ayah, musuh, guard, guru ku

it's not the love of my life, but it's one kind of love and longing. i don't want to leave this time, and instead of worrying about when i'll  get sick of you, i wake up worrying that you'll leave me. i want it to last this time, and i'm not talking about months, but years. i don't long for anyone else, i sometime admire beautiful boys but i don't dare touch, i don't want to break us. this is my masterpiece and i won't leave until being left.

dear Ato, kadang hidup memang sekejam ini, kadang memang yang kita ngga pernah dapet apa yang kita inginkan, but don't regret anything, seperti kita tidak pernah menyesal meninggalkan apa yang sebelumnya kita punya. at least you've tried dan aku tahu betapa kamu berusaha untuk itu.  semoga Allah mengangkat semua kesedihan kamu malam ini.............seberat apapun masalah yang kamu hadapin, sekarang kamu punya teman berbagi, we'll get through this together. 

jangan sedih lagi......you don't have any idea how miserable i am today. i'm broken, because i know you're not okay. please be happy, it's the only way i could be happy too.

i put my faith on you, so please don't give up on yourself

with♥